The week before drags, as always. The day before runs away too quickly, like a kiss or a perfect song.
By midday on the day itself he texts me the details of the hotel.
A different one each year. I don’t get any say in the matter but he never chooses anything too far away. Sometimes he arranges a cab, too.
I always get there first, pick up the room key – “Miss Mason.” as always, and carry my small case up to the suite with the best view, something else he stipulates.
He arrives at 7pm and I’m naked on the bed, drying off after a bath or shower. Radio 4 playing softly in the background. I hear him drop his bag on the floor, and raise my hips, pushing my face into the duvet.
First there is the icy slick of lube around my cunt – his fingers venture inside, and I shiver. His thumb strokes my clit and I moan.
Knelt on the bed behind me, he traces the head of his cock over my swollen outer lips. Over and over, pulling his foreskin back and forth. He’s hard already, jerked himself to fullness in the cab he took to join me here. His hand is at the base of my back as he eases inside, the last act of gentleness as he buries himself in me to the hilt, slowly pulls out and then he slams into me and it begins.
My job is to hold myself there as he uses my slick, sticky hole and not make a sound other than muffled moans. Certainly no words.
Every year, his cock feels different. Thicker, stronger. He fucks me with precision and power and always for almost exactly five minutes. He doesn’t undress, fucking me through his flies. He doesn’t even unbutton them. His trousered thighs rub against my bare skin. My hair catches in the sharp teeth of the zip, but this is all part of it.
Every year is the same, really. He empties his thick creamy load into me with the same, self-satisfied moan as usual. Admires the white imprint of his hand on my back as he withdraws. Snaps a couple of photos of the creampie dribbling down my inner thighs and leaves the money and the apology note on the bedside table.
Two sides, handwritten. He’s sorry. He’s always sorry.
I reach between my legs and coat my fingers in his come, savouring the feel and taste of him.
One day he’ll forgive himself.
One day he’ll stay the night.